Awesome.

Hmm.
Give me a kiss on my cheek.
youaremysuperman.

♥

Done.
I shall changed to another list. =) Its been a good evening. Had some healthy food, but maybe not healthy enough to be my dinner of the day and the proper meal for the condition I am in. As long as the table is for two, everything will be just fine. As how it goes for now, talk it out openly, maybe not fully open, but at least, I speak out and theres a pair of ear which listen to my ramblings.

Life has been jaded for a moment and it is still the black and white. Maybe the missing of my dear friends. But at the same time, it might be cause of the pre menstrual cycle syndrome, if I am not spelling it wrongly. This is scary. To have no interest in hobbies and things, ah well, it is like a phase of growing up. This phase is gonna be very long and I am glad I have someone with me, just right here in my heart. Okay, okay, I know I am being lovely dovey at the moment.

Friends are the gold in life. They shines, they come and go, and the one which has stay will be the one you will keep forever. Nothing can compare with friendship, and thats the truly one you can always find in the name of the person you always look for when they are indeed. I am in a way of how people might think I am berlagak. Haha, and comes up to this, we both agree with it too. I am just weird, like a weird freak if you really do know me in person. To be nice, you would say I am just one of a kind, to be rude, you might say she is so sombong. Haha, I dont mind any though because by then you did not know anything about me yet.

Found a few pictures in my Iphone today, theres something to share with you readers. =)

When is the last time you went on a marry-go-round? And watch the view of the place?

This was one of my favourite fun-fair game. Fishing duckling. Was it your childhood game too?

Sometimes, takes off your heavy complicated mind and go for a swing. =)

Do you like dessert? I do. But not too sweet. Those above is too sweet too be true. =D

But no doubt about the tea time deal of Delicious which is very attractive. =) Give it a try if you can, no regret, but you must have empty big stomach to finish all.







Ah! Long enough?

=P

Giraffe: "Goodnight."

you know i wont run.

Having a short relax while watching my favourite dramas. The funny thing is I got another Indian who is addicted to it too. Bhai to be exactly. =) Today attended Bhai's brother's engagement, which also turn out to be a very small bumping up with some of my highschoolmates. Ah well, its a good day anyway. Stories behind the story.




Learnt new cultural, maybe not something extraordinarynew. But its a good thing that a newly couple got engaged today. And the way people dressed for tradition, maybe not most of them, but some people still do apply it. The beauty of tradition is something that we are born with, somthing that we cant erase from our identity, its part of our trueselves.

These days, find out woman is not the only sensitive human on the earth. On the other way, guys do have their sensitive side. The boys might show their very macho sie on the outside, being a gentleman, nor the very helpful side, but the inside of them, some still take your action nor your words sensitively. Well, this is a very common thing, woman and man are human, both have feelings, it is just that woman tends to show it more than man do.

Its not wrong for the boys to be sensitive. But sometimes, when your sensitive is too over, perhaps, it is getting annoying. Its not to say things are getting worst, it just spoiled the relationships in between. Maybe sometimes, you should choose the right person to be sensitive with, to be manja with. Being a not so much of a girly girl always have the very first impression of a guy which should have to be macho, something not too sensitive, or even if you do, should make it low profile, not something that you should be spraying around just to get that person's attention.

And same thing goes for the post for today, giraffe is not finger pointing at anyone, nor any incident. Its just a slight thoughts of mine, my daily ramblings to be exactly. And for you to know about me, I love typing down the thoughts here. =) And thanks for keeping with me.


I shall continue my dramadrama. =)

Goodnight. ♥

Had new moon premier last night. It wasnt as good as twilight, and twilight isnt as good as expected. So now you get what I am trying to say? But I find the whole movie very funny, as in, watching bhusan, zi wei, aroon, jonard the doink doink face, it makes me laugh the whole while though theres no funny scenes. Haha.

Woman are the natural shopaholic. When it comes to sale, discount, bargain, free stuff, and more, you can ask a lady to do it for you. Anything, it always comes with extra benefits, extra bonus. The past few days, I was loitering around in MidValley, SunwayPyramid, OneUtama, sale sale sale everywhere. And of course, being a girl, I wont miss the chance of getting something for myself. And this also prove that patient is virtue. Two pairs of sneaker that I wanted to get 2 months ago was at the original price, but now, it has the 40% discount, its like I am paying one price for two pairs. Good deal. =D Shopping spree is over. Its time for some random trips.

Who wants to go Melaka for one day trip? Haha, I know you must be thinking I am kidding. Hmm, maybe, who wants to go to Langkawi? Please, please, please. Its so stuck. I have two weeks and few days before I am busy. Its like, not too long, not too short, and I dont really have the proper plan for it. And I am so random, I am just looking around for another random partner. =.='' And also food. Indian food, korean food, japanese food, my own trying out food and more. Haha. Forget about the calories and just enjoy.

Currently, theres a cow tied opposite my house. Poor cow which has been sitting there for very long. Hmm. Why must they sacrifice the cow for a festival? I dont understand. Poor cow sitting there helplessly and waiting to be sacrifice. =(





Pray for the cow. Hope it will rest in peace, later.

Just helped a friend of mine to blog for his blog. Well, its something like just copy and paste, nothing big. This prove how technologies help, when you are faraway but you have an email, and on the other side of the earth is connected to you, everything will be just fine. =)

Last night was Luke's birthday. Had a safe and bumpy drive with him and jacky and also wei with carol in another car. It was all good, had seafood dinner and paid a visit to the funfair. Found back the little kid's game. Fishing duck, throwing steel circle, mary-go-round and with the most canggih for now, the high-and-long swing. It was a good getaway from the town for 5 hours.

Second week of holiday is gonna start soon. I am more of counting down when is my holiday is gonna end. Six weeks seem so short for now. Got the final result last night, stucked with the busy line and cant really get through it. Called my friend who was asleep desperately at 2am, and found out the way of finding out your own result on facebook. Now facebook is everything.


ARE YOU HONEST?


The main thing of the post is about honesty. People always say, good lies bring good stuff, ease the situation, make it better, avoid unwanted additional anger/depress/doubt/arguement. Who does not lie? You tell me. Nor, who doesnt or never told a good lies in their life. But the problem is not lying, the problem is when you are the person who found out the plans behind the lies. Its like, the liar who makes it so perfect, like so much that you think "argh, like that. oh.. okay.". But it doesnt affect anything, I mean, the lie is nothing big, nothing serious. But it just makes you so confuse for a very long night, maybe a several nights. For knowing the reason of the lie is made, you also took responsibility for why is the lie is made. I know it sounds complicated.

But if you are the person who found out the lie, would you burst out like fireworks, or taking it in. Knowing its nothing big, knowing its nothing serious. Its just the matter of how much it matters to you. Nor making it sound so confuse. Its very simple. Just take it in and swallow it. And act as if nothing happens. Maybe. Thats another way of solving it, perhaps, its about forgive and forget. Do you only forgive when people apologize? Nor, you kow its someone fault, you just dont dig in much, just forgive in the sense of you are forgetting about it? Ah, shit, I am making it sound much more complicated.

I shall stop this.

But people. Remember, honesty is always the best out of everything you can have in yourself. No matter how bad the situation is gonna be, one day, someone will be there to understand, to sit down by your side and tell you, the good lies are all silly jokes of yours.

ps to indian.
i love sleeping on your lap.
i feel so comfortable and so secure sleeping in ur hands. =)
iloveyoulongtime.

Its been a while..

Well, the tittle said so. Its been a while I blog. Actually, I opened the new post tab, I filled the blank page post with words but I did not post it up. Instead, I deleted them. I have so much in mind that I dont know what else I should blog about, nor how to bring it out. Its been a while, for me to feel lazy like this. I have been home for a week, exactly a week. I meant, to be in KL, not stucking myself at home. And you know I dont stay at home like 24/7. I have not meet many people from highschool, nor any girls, except for cy and fion. Ah well, guessing my meeting up energy is coming late than my lazyness.

Had a different thought today. To see how my friends are mostly stepping into the world. Well, I dont mean that they are stuck in the dreamland, I meant, earning money, or doing something they think its for their life. I am very proud of them actually. For this age, not many people is doing this besides partying and partying. I am not pointing fingers at anyone. General, in my points of view. =)

Final is over. I thought I am over about it. Oh well, it hasnt been over, till the next semester comes. Well, I just gotta wait for the actual result. Well, its the worst feeling ever. Knowing the only 60% of it, and you are guessing so much for the actualy result. Its like waiting to win the lottery. Well, I am not too much in the mood for now. And I am guessin that is the reason I am writing a proper post. For me at least. I am not doing too bad in the exam, I mean, the whole first semester for the course. I am just not satisfy with the result for now. If you know me, you know nothing can really please me when it comes to result of my academic. Unless, I mentioned UNLESS, its beyond my expectations.

I am done.

buy me crayon make me start colouring. =/

A short break from morning study.
Well, I am being a good girl. Waking up early morning, slept early, just to prepare for my final paper which is in 3 days later. What a long prepare isnt it. =) I love how morning sunshines dries all my clothes and I will have no worry about when to collect them later. They will dry up within half an hour also. Hope the good whether stays the whole day.

Did my morning routine, read through blogs as if their my news sources. Read thestar online. And I guess its the only way I can get access to the world. Yes, I am staying in the jungle/cave you say it. And manage to get through hitz.fm online radio, its the best thing ever for this morning. Hope the line doesnt drop off just like that. =D

Last night went to Melaka General Hospital. Wait. Its not about me. Dont worry. =)
Its about a coursemate of mine. She had an accident, a motor accident, with another friend of mine which is also her roommater. Had several stiches, one of them are on her forehead. Reminded me about mine about one and half a year ago. It reminds me of my pain, my mum cried, my dad drop his work and came, my friends, my teachers. Well, it was a clumsy action of mine. I never forget how did I fell into the longkang. Argh ya, LONGKANG. =.='' And I was 18 soon to be. You must be thinking I was talking about my childhood.

The Melaka General Hospital is scary, it doesnt look like a proper hospital. Everyone inside were so slow, walk so slow, talk so slow, so quiet, and most of the places are damn dark as if they are trying to save on the electric bill. Everything in there seems so scary to me, the corridor, the carpark, the sudden under trees' sits, the dark rumah mayat, the bahagian forensik, ape ape pun gelap gelap.

Drove back to hostel and fall asleep as quick as I could after getting on the phone for a while. It seems like a long day, perhaps, its just a long night.

Accident. Becareful everyone. Drive safe.

back to my books.
C++ programming is confusing. =.=''

Sometimes when you have one, you want two.
People became more greedy and they lost what they have now.
If you have the chance, grab it, and also appreciate it.
Perhaps, theres not always a second chance.

managed to get back to hostel before it wet me.

is your place raining too?

It is a great morning.

I woke up very early today, I think its due to the early sleep last night. I really had exhausted my body till whenever it reach certain time in the day, it will goes off by itself. I had a good sleep. Though, not the deep sleep I have been long for, it still re boost my energy. With a list of songs that I love, that makes it my favourite, they keep me asleep most of the time. With my roommate not around, on my imac softly, and i fell asleep as fast it could be. I guess I am not used to sleep lonely like this. Well, with the songs, I dont feel lonely anymore. Music is the best accompany. And fever definately a good switch to turn off your body and make you go sleep.

Had a cup of neslo, with my favourite buttercookies. Read a few article online, with my only gadgets, iphone. I am very lucky to have it. At least at times like this, I have something which entertain me. Getting online and just reading is my hobby, blogging and reblog, reread blog are also my hobbies. Its a very grateful morning. With few of the meaningful post I read. Some touched my heart, some make me realise, some makes me want to blog. I think this is gonna be really long.

First semester, first year is coming to an end. After about 4 months here, I see how time flies and I am going to end my first semester. Last paper is on Friday, another 3 days to prepare to it. I am now a little bit more relax. After Friday, the hostel will be back to its sleep. Take some rest from us the noisy girls, it serves us well. And after the final paper, I will be back home. Home sweet home. For this short break, I decided not to go back to KL. I stayed in Mlk, hope it worths it. Give my final effort and bonding up with coursemates/housemates before we see each other next year. Four years definately not gonna be long for all of us.

Read an article of timothytiah.blogspot.com. Its about money and happiness. How do you find happiness? In my way of happiness, its who I am now. Its the best time I suppose for a teenager. I dont consider myself as a mature teenager either a childish one. I just love the way I am. I believe that everyone has their own space of mind. Everyone think, in a very different way, everyone hides from their real emotions, everyone compare with each other, no one is actually satisfy with what they have or what they are, getting angry nor depress, not complaining.

I complains, I get depress, I have anger, but ahead of all this, the most good thing I have is people around me. I have a pair of lovely parents,very cool one. My dad wouldnt point at my mistakes, but he let me to see it myself. My mum is another optimistic freak, it seems like nothing can tear her down. Maybe just that they hadnt been showing me much of their real faces. Being the only child in the big family, being the spotlight of all adults, you just have to learn how to handle yourself. Theres no sister nor brother who guide you, nor anyone at your age, you have to learn and pick it as fast as you could. At most of the time, you are on your own, being independent, not any spoiled brat in anyone's eyes.

With also crazy bunch of friends, some is in US, some is in UK, some in India, some in Russia, its everywhere around the world, the boyfriend, goodfriends, childhood friends, readers. When its depress season, I would sit down alone and think about how bad my life it is. Think negatively and gettting more depress about it. This is most of the people do, nothing big about it. But afterall, reading up some positive post, nor talking back to some of my goodfriends, they boost my positiveness up. Its good how I change to fast, at least I dont stay depress so long. And very rarely you see me cry infront of you. I only do that under my cover of mask. Nor infront of people who I think I am very comfortable with. There all a few friends who I miss a lot, going through the age of friendship, so much of troubles, rumours, teenage life, how can you know miss them? I miss how we sit and talk for ages, I miss how we just go for window shopping and taking pictures in the fitting room, most of it, I miss how we get together and take thousands pictures. How are you guys?

I love to feel to be appreciate. Who doesnt? Its a way of self-praising. Or maybe you say it the ego grows in you. But no matter how big the ego grows, dont let it over take your mind, or else you lose everything that you win from the others. Its fine to have your own time, its fine to let yourself to be real, but when its over its limit, theres nothing else left. Be smart, be wise. It doesnt take a day to build up all the feelings, it doesnt take a day to lose all the feelings, it doesnt take a day to show your love, it takes the heart to tell another person you love her.


With all that above,
thats my happiness.

How do you find happiness?

I am easy as ABC.
Sometimes.
When I feel like being a kid.
I have my kiddy time too.
You know you are my source of happiness.
You know a blowing balloon can keep me smiling.
You know how to make me happy.







had fever this afternoon. Its on and off. Thanks to the unstable whether. Had a really long nap this evening. Hmm. Its time to study Nihongo. Have exam on Sunday. Yes, SUNDAY. =.='' Had maggi for dinner, HarMee HorChiak. Had drove around the town with the red hot face, it indicates that I am soon to be Sikh. Two papers down, another two to go. The two major subject which torned me down, its over. Its such a relief, at least for now. Tomorrow you see a giraffe start talking in Japanese, and you will wonder if the giraffe born in Japan but not Afrika.

Another one week and I will be home. For 6 weeks break. I guess my mum had planned my half december. Boys, are you guys free? Lets go for another random trip. =) Christmas is coming! I cant wait to meet the girls. Weng yee, chui yee, kah yoke, seow feng, linda, the boys, and more. Hmm. I should get back to my Nihongo.




dear you,
be strong. you know i am always here. no matter its the difference of time. nor you at the end of other side of the world, you know we are connected. just tell me when you need me and i will be here. just like how i did.
love you. take care.
ym.

I call this ______. (youmayfillintheblank)

Good afternoon.

Just finished one paper yesterday, one has down, another three to go. It seems so long and theres confusion in it. Had a long sleep due to fever and flu. Thanks to the sudden rain whenever I am out for lunch/dinner. Now I am smarter. I cooked maggi mee. It saves a lot. Rm 4 for about 4 meals. Breakfast was my favourite buttercookies. I felt like I had locked myself in this hostel. I moved the table in, I stayed in the room. Maybe it is due to the exam stress.

Heard many songs, they are the only one which keeps me awake to continue study. But sometimes, they are the one which distract me, because I felt like singalong and I had to look at the lyrics. You know how good I am at changing lyrics and continue singing as if its a new song. I remember how i used to sang in your car and you started laughing suddenly. Then I know, you were laughing at my skill.

How does it work like this?
How did I get so distract by you?
How did I get so lost and feel empty?
How did I lose wacky giraffe spirit?
Maybe. Maybe. I need a booster.
Hmm. Maybe. Its not the matter anymore.
Maybe.

Dont tell him that I miss him.
Dont tell him that I need him.
Dont tell him that giraffe cant survive without its brown dots on yellow body.
Dont tell him giraffe has gone crazy.

Because he knows. =)

would you be my rainbow?
I dont need it to be hang on the sky.
as long as you make me feel you are a rainbow.

It’s just a sad picture,
The final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again
You know it’s all the same
Another time and place
Repeating history, and your getting sick of it
But I believe in whatever you do
And I’ll do anything to see it through

Because these things will change
Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It’s a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win
We’ll sing hallelujah…
We’ll sing hallelujah…
Oh… Oh,oh..

So you’ve been outnumbered
Raided and now cornered
It’s hard to fight when the fight ain’t fair
We’re getting stronger now
From things they never found
They might be bigger, but we’re faster and never scared
You can walk away and say we don’t need this
But there’s something in your eyes, says we can beat this

These things will change
Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It’s a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win
We’ll sing hallelujah…
We’ll sing hallelujah…
Oh… Oh,oh..

Tonight we’re standing on our knees
To fight for what we worked for all these years
The battle was long, it’s the fight of our lives
Will we stand up champions tonight?
It was the night things changed
Can you see it now?
When the walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It’s a revolution, throw your hands up, cause we never gave in
We’ll sing halleluiah…
We’ll sing halleluiah…
Hallelujah….

p.s.
I want to shout out loud.
I want to cry as if no one could hear.
I want to run as far as I could.

If only sunflower blossom again.

You held my hand and we crossed the road.





Had a cup of milky lipton tea. Had became the little tutor for everyone. I felt good inside. At least, I am able to find out their mistakes and I could explained based on my knowledge. Hmm, I guess I could answer. No too much of self confidence, losing it bit by bit. Perhaps, need some confidence booster.

Its not fun to walk to in the rain, while you have no idea when the rain is gonna stop. Its not fun to get sick and dizzyness, the next second you feel like vomit while the next day you have your final exam. Its not fun to drive in the rain cause you have no idea whats going on infront of you. Imanewdriver.

I settled this subject, but theres another two in the waiting list. Which I am not too sure if I could do it. I noticed, if I stay up later than 12am, I get hungry. Especially during exam time, I guess my stress speeds up my digestion, and I am now very hungry. No food. Lazy. Ah! I managed to only spend rm3. =D Only in Melaka, I could do so. I am kinda proud of my archievement.

I am now blogging cause I am over stress. My face doesnt show. My behavior and my tummy shows. I had moved my table inside the room. It makes me feel personal. I have my own table in the room, my bed, my steel cupboard, everything seem like in a set. L shape, and its all good. The room has to stays in clean and good condition for another two weeks. Or else, I would have gone crazy.


I apologize.
would you forgive?

goodnight folks.

I am not sure if your grandma did the same like how my grandma did.
she keeps all her stuff in the buttercookies's steel case.
like those older days.
and I remember how my grandma gives me the cookies when I was a child.
it reminds me of my pure childhood.
I was just a kid.

Its 9.39am.
I woke up at 7.30am, slept at 2am I suppose. Not too sure. I know Wooziwei sent me a message on msn. =) I wasnt able to reply as my eyes are closing. Sorry Wei. =) I didnt know why am I waking up so early, perhaps, today is not the exam day. I am afraid I cant wake up tomorrow. It always has the same dream, where you dream of yourself getting late for the exam nor you missed it, its worst. I only wake up early in Melaka, not in KL. Maybe its due to the sunlight that shines into my room every morning, and its just happen for me to wake up early. I enjoy the morning sunlight, it brings me the spirit of the day.

Do you know?
I dont need a prince charming to be in my fairytale. Sometimes, I dont think I have any fairytale. Every girl has one, when they were a child. But fairytale goes away when girl gets older, it brings her back into reality. Sometimes I wonder how could I stand this for so long, but whenever I look into the pictures, I know it why. It just happens, not force, but its from the heart truly. I never thought I would have this, the strong determination, the strong believe, you never know how strong it could be for me to last till now.

My face lies. All the time. But if only you pay a little bit of attention, you would read my mind. Even he did. Its not easy to hide, its not easy to not show. I tried it, I managed it well. Who is there to stay? Who is there to give you a hug? Stand on your feet and you know you just need some time. Its amazing. How does a person's feeling affects another.

Its empty here. Not even a half cup full.
I need some refill pls.

fairytale doesnt happen to me
when you came into my life
its not fairytale anymore
its real to know i have you
its real to know you are being true
its real to know at age 19, i felt this way
its real to know you owns it.

everytime i come back, i come back to home.
and you are my home.

truly goodbye is the hardest to say.
i wish i could hug you tight.





i shall deep my head into the joy of books. =/


bye folks.
take care boys.

When tragedy befalls you
Don't let them bring you down
Love can cure your problem
You're so lucky I'm around
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
To your heart

if only you see it.
and no matter how,
it stays.