Best night in town

The best thing in life isn't about how much you earn for life, how much luxury you could afford, for me, the best thing in life is how much you could share your fortune and be happy with your love one. After a month in Melaka, yesterday night was the most happy one after so long. I love spending time with friends, especially over a cup of belgium beer and lamb fillet. ;)

I have happy boyfriend has exactly the same taste as me. We both love food and never get enough of good food. ;) I must spend this week wisely. Gahh, its already sunday!

I cant believe that I was literally sick for two days and I still able to walk around, join in the fun and push myself out to enjoy every minutes when I am home. I can't get enough of sneaking under my blanket in this lovely weather and get myself yummy breakfast everyday. I can't get enough with my boyfriend drives me around and kiss me on my cheek. Driving my mum around and gets free lunch, spending time with my dogs and chasing after balls. How much I wish the time actually stops now. Anyway I am happy I am home.

;) have a happy sunday people!

Comfortable zone

As much as you get comfortable with that area, or certain people, you tend to be yourself comfortably around them too.

And sometimes you forgot how it was to be awkward.

There could be no more hiding, no more wearing mask, because you are hoping that they accept you as much as you get comfortable with them.

Thats human nature.

Morning love

I am the happiest when I have got my enough sleep, gah! 12 hours of sleep makes me a happy girl. Plus, all the love I have form my boyfriend this morning makes it a perfect day! ;D

I was too tired after a long day for community service. Yesterday my group and I drove to Klebang! That is totally offside from where I am staying now, thats the west Melaka where you can see the sea, beach, bla bla bla. I was lost in the middle of my way there, somehow the memories that I had 4 years ago helped me to found my way. Its not some easy job this time, we spent most time and also efforts on cheering and teaching mental and physical disabled children and adults. Somehow, its a heart touching experience I have.

You can never imagine how patient and tough their mothers are. Some mothers were there to take care of the children and also have to carry them around so that the child can actually join in the fun. They spend so much energy and time for their children, I dont see a single regret nor sadness in their face. Some of them were there for more than 5 years. I was heartbroken when I saw pictures of one of the lady, because she lost so much weight throughout taking care of her child.

After classes, we stayed to do some teaching material for the center. Me colour giraffe! ;D And it was the most enjoyable thing to do so far!

ahh, and sometimes if I dont wanna be a giraffe, I can be a happy rabbit! ;D

Summation of the week

Finally the third week has just ended. I must say this would be the toughest week I have been so far. I used to go home two weeks once and this time I pushed myself to the one month once routine. I am not that used to it yet, the most was three weeks, a month was only during exam period. Plus, this week had really drove me crazy. With all the work piling up in the beginning of the week, and the loneliness felt in this house is soon going to be a habit of mine. Recently eating alone is not a problem anymore, with the accompany of movies and notes,  I dont mind spending most time alone.

My depression was activated by the song "coming home" by dirty money and "long distance" by bruno mars. Both of this are good enough to kill me. And I guess I just realize what does it takes for the guys to dislike the guy's gf sometimes, it wasnt because they hate her, it was just how I felt now.

This semester is going to have more alone time, and out of sudden, I am just getting myself keeping a distance from whom I were closed to. Its just gonna be tougher than ever. Started to imagine how will it be if I ever starts to do everything by myself, walk alone, eat alone, study alone. If I could, I wish that I have someone by my side.

Sometimes its just too tired to stand by yourself
or maybe you have just lost the definition of having fun

Perhaps theres no fun at all

In the end

you have to and must stand alone.

ABC

Nice?

Can you measure mental pressure?

Just watched 3idiots while doing my kindergarten art painting on flash cards (I will talk about my art work soon). I am not a person who go and dig out all the super famous Hindi movie and make it a must watch for me just because my boyfriend is Indian. Somehow I came across this movie in my mate's laptop and so I decided to steal it and watch it while I have my free time. And yesterday onwards I notice my busyness of the semester has just started.

I'm gonna jump here and there. Let me tell you how was my Monday. I spent my monday morning doing laundry, and went for one class. Then in the afternoon after my lunch, I drove to the Jabatan Kebajikan malaysia melaka, then directed to the west-coast of Melaka, Klebang. Basically I'm just driving around to get proper approval to do my community service project, which also literally killed me today.

So while I was spending time for the work, I need some distress. Watching 3idiot and do my work was the best choice ever. It was so funny that I can't stop looking at the subtitles and also the dace expression of the actors till I abandoned my work here and there. ;) and the lesson of the movie is very true and indeed is what every parents and school education system need to learn.

I was happily sharing my joy of the movie with the boyfriend and just realize he watched it N times back in kl. =.= I suppose I'm just slightly behind schedule.

Oh ya! Must remember "all is well", do not let your fear control you, do not fear to chase after your passion, and finally, enjoy the process of receiving knowledge, enjoy study.


;) I need to ciao ciao. I've got no time no time.







I wish all of you have a colourful week!!

Rainy days

 

Hand for Haiti.

I miss home, I miss how I spent my lazy sunday with boyfriend.

I don't really like cold sleeping night, I want you to hug me sleep.

Aiiks, another two weeks.

15.01.2011

While I am not mourning for the missing feeling I have for home, I realize my time flies. Its the second weekend in Melaka, I am planning to do a all-go-no-fun study. I've been very busy for the whole week, firstly I was worrying if my track pants got here on time for my karate practice, then I drove the girls to ask for a chance to be a volunteer in order to finish up our assignment. I had my very first exhausting karate torturing class with the senior on wednesday night, I went for DISC personality test on thursday night then yesterday I was very busy surfing the net looking for QUT and Sheffield, trying to arrange my course structure. Ahh, I havent been touching the book yet!

I was taught to do Hipalachi, down block, upper block, inner block, outer block, the excessive 1.30 hour of learning all this steps makes my body ache for another 4 days. I can barely climb up the fourth floor for lecture class without my leg shivering. Yea, forgot to mention, I am on an exercise routine which requires me to walk up 4 floors of stairs before I reach my lecture class. =.='' Almost everyday. What a disaster of the semester. 

The most highlight of the week was the DISC test. It was held by Utem/MMU cell group at Agape Center. The test indicated me as a "I" type person with a sub "C" character. I am called the estimator, who is harsh and likes to compere, convince others with reasons, thoughtful, work with detailed plan and I am also a great critical thinker. Plus it really describes me well as "I" type; I love to be accepted, I need respect, I need my circle of life, my space, I can talk to anyone I newly meet unless they have some sick disease of the face, I dont like people repeat their words, I dont like if I wasnt given a chance to talk, I dont like people tell me what to do, and plus the good side of "C", I like working with plan and detail. ;D The graph that I drew also indicated that I am the same infront of everyone, with myself, and the perceived self. The result of the test says it all and I was once convinced what characteristic I have. By the end of the day I went home with a lesson; Religion is a believe, not a habit nor a practice.

Btw, I love my new apps on my Iphone. ;D

Have a nice weekend.

Twilight saga - Eclipse

Life in hostel for the first few weeks are very "entertaining". All I have to do is spend most of the time wondering into something fun and entertain for myself. The cheapest and easiest way is kept going to different floors and different houses into different rooms look for all the scattered coursemates for movies! If you have ever been to my hostel before, you probably will see a girl with her light blue pajamas which has a winnie the pooh on it and long blue sleeping pants walking around the corridor with her silky white external hard drive looking for movies that she has not watch. ;) Thats me!

Tonight, while waiting for the clock tick tock I watched Eclipse. I am always a fan of fantasy stories, I finished Harry Potter and most of the twilight saga, I said most. I more to child story book which allows me to have my unlimited space of imagination. I am in love with the storyline but I dont quite like the fact that Bella Swan get to love two person at the same time, Edward and Jacob. This triangle love is not really my thing. Still, I can't deny that I am looking forward to the very last piece of it, Breaking Dawn. Can't wait to see Reenesmee! ;D The daughter which is half vampire half human! ;) Perhaps this only exist in books.

I have a lovely night with my favorite movie. And I am gonna prepare for myself for the endless weeks of assignments and teamwork. Hope I am not tear off by then.

goodnight world.




Edited.
It's just an add on personal feelings. Talking to boyfriend makes me realize if I have choose to study at where I'm belong to, I probably might not be missing any outings back home. Or probably I would not feel like I've been stroke with loneliness here. Or maybe I could actually been hanging out with the boyfriend instead of watching the movie alone here. And now I sleep all the thoughts that just hit me hard.

Life is tough, I wish I could be tougher.

Breakfast with a book

I only have one class on Monday which is at 11am till 1pm, more or less Monday isn't too much for me.








Ive been chewing on cornflakes and reading books whenever I'm free. The notebook by Nicholas sparks is about the love story of an old couple. When the wife has Alzheimer's, the husband still read out loud from the notebook that he had since they moved into the healthcare home. Nicholas sparks never fail to touch the readers heart, indeed this book has brought up the artistic side of me.






Darling, will you still read for me when we are old?

Couple rings

Since last year, or maybe the year before, the couples around me have started the thing call couple ring. No doubt that I once bought it for Maxwell and I, and now I dont remember where I put my ring. It was a black ring with a silver stripe on it, we put it as a pendant and wear it as necklace.

Today we went to Jonker, a friend of mine was picking up the perfect one for her boyfriend and herself as christmas present, a belated one. One of the stall lady thought we two buy the ring, me and her, which is the couple who gonna wear it. I was O.O, hey do I look lesbian to you? Haha. It was worth the time we took, while you see her happy face when she found the right one with very reasonable price.

I start to wonder to myself, at what age I will wear a proper ring, was it the time for engagement? or a propose? Or probably on the day my future husband and I exchange vows.

I do think like a little girl too sometime. ;)






goodnight everyone. Goodnight my sleepy boy.

3:00am

I just had the urge to wake up. It's been two nights, two nights I woke up and I checked the phone. I wonder if you remember what you've said. You'd said you will do so, but I'm guessing you were just too busy for me, no matter how long I've waited. Perhaps, you didn't notice that I've waited.

Ps. It's 4 now. I spent the night wondering if you are safe. I'm guessing my heart still ponder and its enough to get me can't sleep. Are you safe?

Taking a step

Continues with my adapting phase, I actually took a step further, and I went out with the girls in the evening.



Nothing big, groceries shopping, decent western dinner and a little shopping company makes the night ended with laughter. Just like how we spent last night with cards and paranormal stories.

I'm kinda glad that my blue days do not stay too long this time. I'm guessing some incident just triggered it and I just gotta burst out in order to balance my hormones. And I really need to thank keatbeng who borrowed me "The Notebook" by Nicholas Sparks, this book kept me forget the time for a day and it activated the deep feelings inside of me. Sometimes you just forget or maybe you just don't notice how long have you not tell the person how much they mean to you, or how much you love them. That book made me did something that I don't usually do, and it turns out more than what I have expected. I gotta say it makes me feel artistic.

It's time to turn off the light and sleep tight. Goodnight everyone.

Better days

 At better days I would prefer to go for a decent lunch, better environment. And at better days like this, I usually have long gap for lunch break, from class to another class I usually have about 2 or 3 hours of break, which also makes me lazy to drive all the way back to the hostel and come out later.

Prosperity burger is like a must thing for every chinese new year in McDonald.

By the way, my house has two new member this year. ;) Hamster boy and hasmter girl, haha no idea what names Shermaine gave them, they were brought in by my new housemate. New pet in the house.



Have a nice weekend everyone. I am hoping no rain today or else my clothes will never dry properly and I have no clothes for the next day. ;P