Good morning folks. I am actually in the class now, while the others are doing tutorial, I curi online with Rex lappie. I look like zombie at the moment,messy hair, dark circles around my eyes, and hungry stomach. I dont think I can stay up late nights for assignments anymore. It just kill my body literally, I do sound like an old grandma who cant stand working hard, instead, I cant stand sleeping late, especially in Melaka. =.='' Where is my wild night has gone? 

Yesterday, be in a group in Facebook, a supportive group for a guy name zi yang, who passed away last night. I didnt have much feeling towards him, till today, looking at those messages on his group's wall, I felt sad. A guy who battled with death god for almost a week, had finally gave out his last breath and find his way in another world. Seeing so many unknown people sad for him, seeing me adding into his group, that is another feeling. 

If you care for people around you, dont hesitate to tell them how much you love them.
You will never know what will happen the next second.

Rest in Peace, ZY.

To mrbrown.

You are my hot chocolate. ♥

A cup of hot chocolate make it all good. =D

Love.

Life is like a son of bitch.

#1. I am stuck with piles of assignment and last minute stupid static quiz.
#2. I dont really recognize that thick book, it got me dizzy by the way.
#3. I am handicapped, I cant play fast and furious when I am bored. No more.
#4. I cant be random and tell my boyfriend how the birds sing in the morning.
#5. I cant check who missed me and whats on and whats not.
#6. I cant sleep peacefully at night without thinking about the nightmares.
#7. I cant stop myself from googling it a hundred times and wasting all my times reading those related forums.
#8. I cant just forget about it.


You know?




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at 5.50pm


had a pile of coins
it stayed just right in my palm
walked to the nearest public phone
started pressing the familiar number
the phone rang
but you didnt pick it up
wonder when what the last time I made a call with it

i miss you.

=/

Good morning sunshine.

I see you in my dream. =)
I hope things are better for you today. You know thats what you wished for me too.
I wont be alone, as long as you are here in my ♥

I felt handicapped.

But I am glad enough, I still have the internet access with my coursemate help. I didnt expect that I ended up having nightmares since last night. I dont think I ever feel good after all. It might be, but for very short term. All that stuck in the head might be all about my yesterday. I even woke up in the midnight to see if its okay. I guess I am going crazy soon. Check so many online forum, saying that its kinda hopeless. which makes my mind going more crazy. I felt so handicapped. Especially when I am alone in my room, on youtube and listening to vanilla twilight. Whats wrong with me listening to sad songs still when I am sad. This time I am really sad. I know when I am sad, its when I dont sleep well, when I am afraid to sleep and getting nightmares in the dream. I wished it was just a dream, which I can wake up from and nothing had happened. But having it in my mind the whole day and starts worrying about every single thing since then is not fun at all.

I hate nightmares. ='(




ps. You are my pillow hugger.

A pretty layout? =D

I think its good enough for my blog. Its all blueish. =D
Today is a good day. Had some movie session in the morning while the annoying forum was on in Dewan Besar. Dont really know what the talker's intention, integrity, no idea. But anyway, had JavaChipFrapp. =D Wee, the happiest thign ever for today. And thank you for someone, you know you make my day, for that simple message.

=D

I heart you.

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

"This song reminded me of you. Especially when I am alone in my very own room. Look up to the sky, I see many stars. I really wished you could be here, then I can listen to your stars' stories.

Today is one of the worst day. Try to crack some jokes to make myself laugh. Eventually, giving myself more heart attack. Thinking too much in the head. Dont know when it will be okay.

But I do believe, tomorrow will be a better day. With you in my heart.

Love you."

Happy Birthday abi.

♥

When I look up to the sky, I see many stars upon me.
It is so beautiful.
It reminds me of how we sat at portuguese settlement and chat all night long.

Why la bad things happen so last minute? Testing my ability on handling crisis is it?!



>=] oh so dizzy!!








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I love my static group 3 boys! though they are very annoying sometimes, and very very very not cooperative! but when things come, we still work as a team, not matter how and go through every single bit of it. =D

To the person who sabotage my group's tower.
I am very sure you were jealous of my group, and you dont get enough teamwork love. =)




I am a happy girl.

p.s. Thanks ain for the internet access. =D

Had my favourite burger and fat man steamboat. =D It was just simple and nice. I love it the way it is. Things will eventually be better, just like any other. Glad that he like the present. Glad that everything went well in the end. Glad that I came home this time. =)

I love how things mend between us. I love how we get along and just hug each other.






In the end of the day, I am a happy girl. =)

了解她、信赖她、珍惜她.

Was driving along the highway, singing the song that played on the radio, passing by accidents, rain drops on the windscreen, the car was moving very slowly. Wished you were here, then I wouldnt have to drive through the rainy days. Theres so much to be understand, so much to be give and take, so much more for the journey.

It takes more than just one day, one week, one month to understand someone, to go with their flow, to have them in your life, living together. It takes more than just holding hand and watching movie. Its more like learning on living together than being an individual.

You gotta accept how things do not go with your flow, you gotta deal with how expectation beyond your disappointments, you gotta learn how to accept. I am still on the learning page, if only everytime you give me the chance to, and let me wake up from expectations.

I learn not to expect, but I am a human too. Human made mistakes, sometimes, you can hold control of what you feeling, you expect too. Thats how I am, for being me. Expect to be ordinary, just like any other, little bit of pampering, attention, care and also love. That will be always top in the not-enough-list.

But most of all, I miss the point of yours. You are no longer the one I met at very first place. Instead, you are growing up to be the man. It takes more than just one understanding class to be a man, especially to be the people around that man. You just gotta be supportive, understanding and patient. What I meant is maximum understanding and patient. Not a spoiled brat.

I might look tough, not physically, I meant, I might look very strong the outside, but the inner part who has see it? I am still a girl inside of me, who cries over small stuff, who still manja at the one she love, wanting attention, and wanna just go on normal dates. Which girl doesnt feel that way? Which girl doesnt wanna get pamper? Especially away for quite a while. It just that she hasnt run into your arms and hug you tightly.



I am still learning. And I love how we act just like any other. We fought, we shouted, just like any other.

Watching Merry Madagascar. Opsie. I guess this will be the 13th movies of the month. =.=''


Had test today. Poft! and also knew the carried marks for statics. poft! dead. Last night fall asleep in ain's room. Was holding notes, and I was sleeping nicely right beside her cute little brown bear. I guess I miss my bed back home, the one which full with bears and also giraffes. It was all good sleeping right beside her, like a big sister beside me. =) Only woke up this morning and walked back to my room like a zombie fella got lost in the apartment. =.= sometimes I felt like I am staying in the prison. The apartments are surrounded by grills, theres a basketball court where people still play balls at night, i meant, midnight sometimes, theres everything in here, like water supply, ko-op, laundry. Haha, like those high class prison. =.='' My imagination level increases after watched bed time stories.






Pooft.
*wtf with my poft here poft there?



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Guess girls are complicated afterall, they didnt know what they want, or how they want things to be. Sometimes we get the guys on their nerves. Pretty much confusing. I dont even know what I want most of the time. And most of the time, I assume, my brain never stop working, like it cant be stop for a minute, to stop thinking. Constantly, there have to be something in the head and finally, when we burst, everything is gone. Like insane. =.=''





off.

Life is not only revolves around you, but everyone else in your life.

I'm learning, to give more than take.

Morning peeps.

#1. No matter how late the night is, your message nor your call means a lot to her, she will reply you always. She always fall asleep while waiting even though she said nevermind.
#2. No matter how busy you are, dont forget to give her a call nor message, do not act hot and cold. Or else she would lost her mind, start nonsense thinking. She will wonder if she did anything wrong. Do not go missing, when she cant find you, theres when she loses her smile.
#3. Your footsteps on her pages give her the biggest smile of the day.



Woman is the most complicated creature on the earth.

親愛的你，

我想這是我們兩最近的合照吧。看了你的部落格，想讓你知道，你不是一個人的。很想很想現在就抱著你喔。想你一定是很累了吧。不要一個人的哭喔，要等我會來陪你傻掉。

玟

ps. tried to call u. pls do pick up the phone.

Time difference.
Subject difference.

All that makes the distance.

Haha, I guess this is the best pic I ever got so far. =D

Did some studies, chat with Issy and get online! =D
Pooft! TechComm and Hubungan Etnik classes are over now. I am just gotta prepare to die for their quizzes and exam. Somehow, I am not prepare for anything yet. I am screw. But I rather have no short class anymore. =) That add on to my big smile. Which also means that I can now ponteng monday class, and also thursday I would have the chance to go back to kl and ponteng friday class. Hmm. wait, this sounds like it gives me more chance and excuses to ponteng class.

Maybe, I m not prepare to study for final. Who is?

For the past few days, I have watched 10 movies I think.

1. The proposal
2. The ugly truth
3. Sister's keeper
4. Princess and the frog
5. 72 tenants
6. Alice in the wonderland
7. Employee of the month
8. Brides war
9. Ghost of past girlfriends
10. Benjamin Button.

Probably I am too free to do anything at the moment. Except for studying for the test on wednesday. Pooft.

Working on a handmade craft. Wish me luck. =)


Good morning sunshine.

Last night, watched Alice in the Wonderland. I recall when I was a kid, I never like this childhood story, not at all, even I watched it a zillion time on disney channel, I still dont like it. Maybe I not those which has weird imagination, funny looking creatures or extraordinary stuff. That kind of dream doesnt suit me. And pretty much, it seems more of a horror movie for me. Aside from all the motion, and animation creation, it was a good movie which directed originally from childhood story. And the most funny thing out of that night is, I gotta jump walk all the way from the 5th floor cinema to the parking lot outside. Haha, I never had this before. At least in kl, I will never take the back stairs. =D

Walked through the same old street, saw the same girl who play the same instrument. The very first time coming there was with mrmutton. Since then, I used to walk through the same place just to listen to her melody.

Saw a few old houses this morning, which I dont normally pay attention to. I love being the one who sit at the back and next to the window. I love side-seeing. It was two old lady, relax and chit-chatting at their front yard, i suppose they are neighbour. Saw another house which has their own farming garden, which also makes me a happy girl who dream of the same house. A house which has sunflower garden. Like he said. =)

Cant wait for the holiday to come. Cant wait for the preplan trip. I suppose, it has to be delay. =[ Missing redang now, missing pulau perhentian, missing langkawi, missing bali, missing penang. =D i love being the island girl, though im a city girl but my mum is from the island. =P

It is a pretty morning. =)
I miss u mrmutton.

Pfft.

I forced myself to wake up at 7.45 while class at 8am. Then a messaged came while I was driving and talking to ahbi on the phone. Pfft. Class got canceled, wasted my time waking up and wasted my sleeping. And also not forget to mention, I had a terrible morning by all funny and freaking stupid drivers. =.=''

I decided to skipped the class which is right after the class which got canceled. This is why u see me here!

=D



ps. I mau balik rumah, tapi rumah tak ade orang. lagipun itu india busy. argh! mengapa life susah ini. ade rumah tak boleh balik. =( macam nak nangis je.

Its been a while since the last time I painted the big backdrop with the interact girls. This time, I did it with my bunch of unimates. It was hell crazy by finishing it within 3 days. Argh! Can u see the cinese brush in the middle? Thats my very own work. =D and I am satisfied with it. I miss how the interact girls worked together for all the events, carmen used to draw and we all will paint till every part of us got a little bit of colour.

Hmm, I miss highschool.

Today is more of a relaxing day for me. After a long while of rushing all the work, I can now sit in cc and enjoy blogging. Knowing that there will be no study week for this coming final, it almost killed everyone's soul. Practically, after today, tomorrow we will be getting another two assignment due date right before final, and finishing off all the syllabus and rushing rushing rushing with no rest the next day final. Pop! Dont be surprise if you see a giraffe transforming into a Panda. Sigh.

I miss you though.

ps.mutton

Pfft. There is no study week this semester, which means I would have to stuck here for almost two months until the final end. Argh!!! I'm going crazy crazy!!

7 finals in three weeks, no study week, once all the projects finish then final. Mamamia!!!







;'(

It takes more than one to complete a group work. Mostly, dealing with practically "retarded" people is not fun for me. And also, not forgetting the popping up assignments, quizzes and also in-a-row final exam in April. I wanna go home. I wanna just lye on my own comfort bed and sleep all day long, wake up and eat my favourite food, enjoy starbucks in the evening, mamak later at night, movie with ahbi, yum cha with the girls, or simply driving to one of the mall just for window shopping.

I need that badly.

But I think, I need hugs the most.

When will it stop?
When is the empty tank ready?
Why it feels different?

<3

If only it rains today, then I would see a rainbow after rain.
Sometimes I felt like letting out everything, but is there any empty tank?


Morning folks.

Getting off stress little by little. Had my very first formal presentation. Got some good remarks and comments from Prof. Its a good start for my presentation chapter. Ah well, I never get this nervous before. with my face red and feeling nervous, this is definitely not my thing. And sweating like hell right after it. I swear, this is my very first time kia siu like this. ;)

I guess Mid term fever is over, now is all popping up with lots of quizzes which also occupied very good helping marks for the course work. Got some mid term result which I am very satisfy with, at least I know my hard work did pay off. ;) Minus all my sleeping time.

Skin disease still on. But I think its getting better.

A quick update.

Ciao off to bed. ;D

Not well still.
Raishes expanding.
No more fever.
;(


An quick update.