Why me?

I am having mild fever and flu. And I just picked-on by someone. I think I am over-reacting this time. But I really extremely sad for the way *unknown* picked-on me. I just don't understand why and why me? There's nothing I can do to make it normal like how I react to other people. I just feel so sad. :'(

I love weekends. Who doesn't? :) I took some time to prepare the ingredients for nasi lemak, lucky Shikin helped me out, of else it would have took ages for me to cook. The dish turns out "not bad". Lol, exceptional for the sambal which turns out to be sweet like its chef. Otherwise, everything else is good. :)

I love the moment I got up, take a cold shower, enjoy my brunch, watch a series. And start my work. If things didn't turn out the way you want it, laugh about it. Improve the next time. There's always room for improvement.

When you lose something important in your life, you take a while to recover the inner side of you. In March 27, I lose my beloved grandpa. It took me half a year to slowly letting go the pain in me. I believe he is in a better place right now. I might seems all alright to everyone, but who has touches my heart? I begin to feel carefree and less picky these day. I realize that the thing I should do to make myself happy. Start to enjoy every single bit around me. You cant get everything in life. Sometimes you just have to stop your footstep and look around, see what you have miss in life.

I picked up a hobby, put on a smile on my face, enjoy the raindrops, dance in my room while I listening to songs, sing out loud when I am alone. Things I do when I am alone, I took the time to understand myself, to make myself happy before anyone could. And I just realize, I have came back to be a happy child.

知足，惜褔。

I don't remember when was the last time I was so relax like this. Countryside, wind blow by, and a song singing in my head. 

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I had a really good September and my October had started in an awesome way. I just can't resist how much I like for being me right now. I built up a new hobby, jogging. I make sure if I have the time, I will take a jog in the park. Its been like a good healthy activity which keeps me smiling most of the time. Knowing that I achieve a little bit more each time I run, I feel good about myself. It been a while I sweat this much, I dont remember when was the last time I being active for stuff like this. I used to be, but I became lazy and slow. Here I come! Nikerun2012.

It's October. Been four weeks since I came back to Melaka. I'm not sure if its because of my last year of degree or its just me, I felt a drastic change in me. I stop picking at small little things after all. I tried and did not get pissed over things that I can't change. At the same time, I began to be very consistent about my running schedule. I spent my free times with a lot more activities compare to the previous years. I felt the need of making myself active eventhough at times I'm alone. But this alone time that I have spent during running has calm me down. I guess it's coming to the good end of the year. I can't wait, to be home to you, my love.