When I was ready for it, you gave me hope. When I expecting for it, you gave me disappointment. When I thought it will be happy, you make me realize it does not last long.

If there's one minute of happiness and a month of sadness, to feel less sad and less disappointment, I would pick a month of sadness. At least I dont have to feel like as if I'm on a roller-coaster of mood swing, it feels even deeper when you gave me hope and you took it away.

I should have maintain the distance. The distance that keeps me in depress mood rather than expecting for your attention.




I'm afraid of how you would react, I'm afraid of me not accepting the other you.

You asked me to learn to not be overly attach. But I'm learning how to distance myself, the further I go, the lesser pain i feel.

I realize, no matter how tough I'm trying to be, I'll still melt in your love.

If you can, make me fall in love with you again and again. It makes me feel so much happier and love.

Sing me a lullaby tonight.




One week had passed. Last week I still can hold your hand. I see your face, I touched your body. I miss you grandpa.

I've a new habit. I patiently waits for 9pm every night. And I tried to hear your heartbeats through it

If I said I miss you, do you miss me the way I miss you?