You will not feel the pain unless you were the one who put in the effort and you get nothing from it.

Countdown : 1 months 24 days

Today is one of the worst day to start another half semester. Had the worst after-quiz feeling. Have the knowledge, just did not twist my brain and think. I guess its time to re-strike everything. It may be stressful but I do not want to repeat the same mistake.

Feeling weird typing this in the room while everything around you are so quiet. I guess I am use to sitting down in the hall with you and watching my on-to-go tv show.



Countdown: 1 months 29 days.

Countdown : 2 months





;(

You show me magic again. Please do it more often. Your princess. Countdown : 2 months 2 days.

im not that good in hiding my feelings from myself. The second i typed it, I cried right after. I wish you were here.





countdown : 2 months and 3 days.

she kept asking me if she did not send you into hospital, would you have gone so early? I tried my best to crack some jokes, find some other topic. I know my feelings towards you are not as deep as grandma. At least she spent half of her life with you. Could you hear us? 

We miss you, grandpa.

;'( now the heart begin to feels empty as if there's a hole to fill.