Hazelnut choc and signature choc from starbucks.
would you buy me one hazelnut choc and see my face stick with whipped cream?
and give me that hazelnut choc after putting so much of my fav choc powder?



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i enjoy the loneliness sitting under the shade and listening to the songs on my ipod. the songs that playing on ipod and the songs that runs around starbucks doesnt match. its irony, how i am listening to both of them. this is something like you did. your ears are so sensitive, for any songs that going on, or any sound, you can hear it. but i dont, most of the time.

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

theres unknown distance
but with my heart, it cant changes.
not for now.
as you know, how it grows, how it takes.
it always there.
like how you held my hand.
take our time.
we need some little space for our own.
do you like babies?
watch john and kate.
=) smile for giraffe.

bye folks.
i need a break.
i might come back soon.
final is near.
i cant afford to screw it up.




will you be here?
thanks man.





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i dont know how many times i have been editing this post, again and again. now it is raining outside. like it knows how i feel deep inside. its cold here. with the hoodies i brought it still doesnt help much. maybe, a cup of hazelnut choc will help. my fav all time. listening to sad songs, sitting alone in starbucks, enjoy in the rainy day, its another good emo day. with all the formula stuck in my mind, i dont know if i would applying them good. at least, i know the sky is temaning me. not much of a loner. have you sit down and watch the rain drops fall? have you enjoy dancing in the rain? have you take an umbrella and walk in the rain?

i would do that, if only you are here.



=='' another bye.

I am running.
Far away.

If you call and asked if I was fine, I would said yes;
But my voice tells you that was a lie.

Do you miss my smile?
I do.
The warmest hug is when I have it from you, tightly.

Have you have or had someone who is so important in you life? Cut off the family, parents part. I meant someone who is not from your family. Like a friend? Or maybe sometime more than a friend. Its just different from the family, no matter how far you go, what you are doing, family will never leave. But in life, do you have someone else like that in your life?

I have someone as I mentioned above. If you read the previous post, you would know how is he in my life. For everytime I read it back, I cried. But its definitely not because I am upset. But I am touched, with someone like that I have in my heart. For everytime I feel so selfish about myself, I cried. I am just a little small girl beside him. Not too much of an independent nor the strong girl you always see. You dont see who I am when I am around him, you dont feel how I act when I am with him.

Its more than a boyfriend. Its more than a friend you can lye on. Its like soulmate. Theres so much space and comfortable zone. I have no problem to tell him anything, like anything, except those surprises that I wanna do on him. Or even if I hide anything, in the end of the day, he will be the first one to know nor first one to find it out. A very good listener, listen and tell you that you are a strong little girl and everything is gonna be alright. Especially at times like this, stress out, sleepless night and unstable emotional. Theres so much you can lye on him and cry out loud. He will kiss your forehead and smile at you.

He will never tell you how he feel, like things he worry about, things that mary-go-round in his mind, things that he never want you to worry for him. Always being a girlfriend, the first one you always want to call to is your boyfriend, and non stop complaning nor talking about how hard your day is, how stress out your day is, how tired you are. But the other side of the phone is always so patient and listen to you no matter how tired he is after a long day. He tried to give his best to you and comfort you, while you not knowing he had a long day too.


Do you know how much you mean to me?
I couldnt find the best world.
But for sure I know, you are the only one lives in my heart.







goodnight folks.

He always be crazy with you and support you in a way where he think its time for you to be crazy.
He would wake up in the midnight and check his phone and gave you a call in return to check if you are alright.
He would wake up in the morning just to wake you up because you asked him to do so.
He wouldnt message you nor call you like how other boyfriends do because he has a life.
He will not blame you for not messaging him nor call him just because you were out.
He will not blame you if he cant find you no where just because you didnt tell him.
He would drive all 132 km just to see you for 5 minutes because he just miss you too much.
He wouldnt leave his work and come to see you because he know he need to do his best in studies.
He wouldnt call you nor talk to you if he is in a bad mood, he rather take in everything.
He eat all your cooking no matter its nice or not and will still tell you how lovely it is.
He will buy you icecream whenever you ask him to do so and force you eat everything.
He will be like a small boy and just lye on your shoulder because he feel warm beside you.
He will kiss your hand again and again and again because he misses you.
He will tell you that you are his strong little girl and everything is gonna be okay when you are falling down.
He gives you big hug whenever you need it.
He will only buy what you think its nice on him and he believes in your taste of fashion.
He will order and give his food to you because he know you love trying on fancy name.
He will not surprise you as much as you expect because he is a noob.
He shows his care in a very different way which makes you feel you are an individual too.
He will spend as much as time he could if he could.
He will drive you to New town just to buy a RamlyBurger and eat with you in the car.
He willing to try out new food with you and walk the whole day with you.
He will not put your picture in the wallet because he doesnt love sitting on your face.
He will keeps small things of yours like a piece of tissue that you scribble on.
He will put you asleep and treat you like a small girl when he thinks you should be in that way.
He will tell you the right and wrong and will not fake it just because he love you.
He never look at another hot girl because he thinks his girl is the best he found.
He never fuck around because he thinks he already has one deep inside his heart.
He takes a lot of time to sleep and sleep and sleep just because he knows you will let him to do so.
He never worry that you will find another or look for another because theres so much trust in you.


He gives you his heart and know that you take care of it very well.
He is mine.

the man that lives in my heart.

10 minutes ago...

rahimcheali : hye darlingggg!!
me: hello rahimbinali.
rahimcheali : do you luv me?
me: no.
me: =D
me: sorry.
rahimcheali: why?
me: because my heart only can fit one person.
no more space for another.
=P

.....


then he appears offline.




oppsie..






have a goodnight!
=)

you know who you are. Mmmuaaahh..