One hug. If you found someone who truly love you. Grab it. Don't let him go. Like how I'm grabbing mine now

Mind game doesn't work all the time. It only works if the player compromise.

Coming home

Coming back home makes me happy every time. If I'm planing to go back home for the weekend, I will be all happy and excited from Monday onwards. My little mind will start planning what I should do during weekend. Where should I go for lunch, should I go for a jog? A walk may be nice. Those plans somehow get stuck in my head for quite a while. 

I guess I'm becoming very inconsiderate. When I come home, I like things to be like I planned. Life is never gonna be perfect, not everything will come your way. As I stayed longer in Melaka, when I  back to KL. I became more demanding than how I used to be. I won't negotiate, I can't stand the fact that things not going as it planned, and I went all crazy because I simply can't tolerate. 

Is it because I have gone crazy in Melaka? Was the pressure that held me back so much, and I release everything here on the person I can be true to? I don't know. One thing I know, I appreciate every single minute when I am back home. In Melaka, I wish time pass faster, at home, I wish time stop. 

I'm losing it. I'm losing myself to this mental disorder. Sometimes it's scary, because I don't recognize myself anymore.

I miss the way you missed me the last time. I miss the way you came to pick me the last time.

The last time.

May

Time flies. My last semester is going to end in another month. Final Year Project presentation was good. And its time to wrap up everything. For the past two years, I experienced staying somewhere not I call home. However, I have slowly adapt to it, and started calling it a home whenever I am going back to Melaka. Renting out is very difference from being in the hostel. There is so much to be taken care of, not just the households but also the relationship between housemates. I admit, I am not always a responsible person, but thanks to them, I am a better person than who I were before. I am not the kind who get use to stay in a big family, or communicating/maintaining a relationship. As the only child in the family, having mates around is actually a cultural shock for me. I have survived through these two years. And I am going to be better for another year, hopefully. Housemates had taught me a lot. A lot that I never expected. and hopefully, the relationship of housemates ended well before we all going into separate ways.

很多年前，有一位朋友介绍周杰伦的歌个我，叫我无论如何都要尝试去听。也是因为他的倍半，我走过初恋的苦。也是因为他，今天我很开心的大声唱。谢谢你。

Prince2

Today officially ended Prince2 foundation course. It is a management control course. It can be apply to any project. Put aside huge engineering projects, construction project and etc, there is a real project that I am having now. Relationship is like a project of life. You fell in love with a person, you start a relationship, maintain, controlling the boundaries and respective scope, you realize this project takes a lot of time and resources.

In prince2, I was taught that there must be a business justification which support the viability of the project. Here I think about my project, what does it supports its viability? How did I go on for so long? How did we maintain it so long? There's a few principles that needed to be apply to all relationship, eg: trust, understanding and communication. I guess the hardest combination would be understanding and communication.

Everyone is an individual, I might tell you that I am able to communicate with you but I do not understand you as a person. Or maybe, when we grow old, perspective changes, the way you look at things are now different. You may not be the same person anymore, but there is a part in you trying to let the other half to know, you are changing, but you are not deviated from the one he used to know.

Before you proceed to the next stage, you gotta review the current stage, and ask yourself, was it good? Was it worthwhile to continue. This applies to a project. Thi also applies to a relationship. Dating, getting serious, engage, marry, give birth grow old and die. Stage by stage. Befor you go on the next stage, you will know if you should.

This course not only has give me academic and mentally prepared, but it also has taught me how to deal with a relationship rationally. There's a part of me controlled by emotion, there is always a balance.